Here I sit, (technically) Sunday morning of finals week, with next to no inspiration to do anything.
I just got back from practicing for the playing portion of my Percussion Techniques final (for which I am extremely- emphasis on extremely- screwed) and I just can’t find any sort of motivation to get through this week.
I don’t know exactly what it is that’s holding me back; I should be scared out of my mind on how poorly I could possibly do on my finals to be motivated enough to study and do well on them.
But all I can think about is the fact that 1) in less than a week I won’t have to worry about this crap and 2) that, in the long run, a test should not ultimately determine how I do.
If you think about it, the mentality of tests and projects and the last two weeks of the semester is completely fabricated. That “Oh my God, this is the most important thing ever” mentality isn’t something that should dominate your life after you leave college. Life outside of a learning institution doesn’t consist of quizzes, exams, papers and group projects. You’re not going to head to your job and have your employer tell you that you better bone up on your reading material because I’m going to give an exam next week covering the entire book. That’s absurdly ridiculous.
And yet, that’s how we function. Am I saying I possess a better way of learning or assessment? Absolutely not. I’m just displeased with the way things are.
The way I see it, this “Oh my God” mentality inhibits learning more than encourages it. If you constantly feel under pressure to learn something and then execute it well, is that healthy at all? Shouldn’t the end game be that the learning done is made second-nature, so that the teacher replaces him or herself?
And yet, whilst I debate these existential questions about how learning should be done, I can feel by GPA sinking because of the fact that I probably won’t do extremely well on finals. How sad is that?